wow...blogging is fun

i have been procrastinating a simple assignment for more than eight hours now. i spent a little time foxtroting and working on work for other classes...then i came home and watched an old episode of america's next top model on mtv...then i looked at a bunch of pictures on facebook and cried while being a little nostalgic. when i thought that all was lost and i would have to start the paper on christian transcendence in an immanent frame, i decided to make a blog while listening to indigo girls. great- just what i need...something else to become addicted to instead of my work! however i have approximately two and a half weeks and then i have absolutely no plans whatsoever...then i will have time to blog but might not have anything to blog about.
i figure that i am going to be completely honest on this blog...if you talk to me long enough my life is an open book anyway. so i wil just state a few things right from the start: one, yes i am terrified and excited to be a college graduate and have not one clue as to what to do and am oddly okay with that. two, i still miss and love nicholas terribly. three, i did buy a cheeseball this semester and ate the whole thing with ritz crackers- it was weird, but i am into trying new things right now. four, i reserve the right to be completely irrational, bratty, and hypocritical as i am still in my "figuring things out" stage...but mostly i hope to be nice :) and five, i worry a whole lot but i really dont have that many concerns in the world as i am perfectly sure that everything is going to work out...eventually.
okay...i really need to at least get a head start on this as it is due in a little over twelve hours and i hope to sleep and shower between now and then as well.